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#AllAlone: The letters that reveal the torment of little Ayesha Ali, killed by her own mother

London’s Metropolitan Police have released the heartbreaking letters written by 08-year-old Ayesha Ali over the days and weeks she was tortured to death by her own mother and her lesbian lover.

Little Ayesha was found dead at her home in Chadwell Heath, Essex, weighing just over twenty kilos and covered in multiple bruises on 28 August 2013.  She had died as a result of a blow to her head.

Her mother Polly Chowdhury, 35, and her 43-year-old lover Kiki Muddar – who are both said to be of Bangladeshi origin – were on Wednesday found guilty of manslaughter over Ayesha’s death.

The court heard that Muddar had “groomed” Chowdhury over a period of three years before convincing her that Ayesha was “evil” and had to be “exorcised”.  The duo inflicted a sustained stream of abuse – both mental and physical – on Ayesha in the months leading up to her death.

Little Ayesha’s gut-wrenchingly devastating letters reveal the torment she suffered at the hands of the one woman who was meant to protect her.

In one, she draws up naughty list – including “not pulling faces” and “not eating all my meals” – whilst in another she writes: “…I’m not just letting myself down but I am letting my family and Kiki down as well.

“It’s the weekend today and most of my friend are probably having a laugh, watching telly, where as I am just sitting here making notes.

“I have learned while I am sitting here that I have to change!

“I WILL CHANGE, NO MATTER WHAT! If I be rude then nobody will like me! Being thought bad, naughty and mean it’s getting to be very upsetting.

“I don’t like hurting other people’s feelings. I don’t know how I make myself do these things!

“I hate getting punishments so I’m gonna make sure I change.”

The Old Bailey in London heard that Chowdhury was convinced by Muddar that Ayesha needed to be punished. 

Chowdhury said that her daughter had been given ice cold baths, force fed and ordered to scrub the bathroom floors.  Neighbours told police that they regularly heard the “pitiful” screams of the little girl as she was repeatedly scared by either Chowdhury or Muddar.

The women had befriended each other after Muddar had moved to the same lane as Chowdhury.  Prosecutors said the duo had developed a “toxic” relationship.

Bizarrely, the court was told that Muddar had created various “imaginary characters” who sent thousands of messages to Chowdhury on Facebook, telling her of the “evil” inside Ayesha.  Chowdhury is then said to have acted on the “instructions” by punishing her daughter.

Ayesha’s letters were found by police officers inside the same bedroom where she was found dead wearing nothing more than her underwear and covered in more than 50 bruises.

Ayesha’s father Afsal Ali had separated from Chowdhury some years before her death.  Speaking after the verdicts, Ali said: “Ayesha was an amazing child. Intelligent, loving, caring and passionate about life and world poverty. She loved life and her family and all she wanted was to be part of a happy family.”

Chowdhury and Muddar will be sentenced on Friday.



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